Ok, so it's not so much a battle as it is me whinging like a whinging thing about why writing is haaaard.
I got to pondering about this the other night at work since I'm in the middle of working on both fanfics and original fictions at the same time.
In some ways, fanfiction can be easier (for me) to write than original fiction is. I have a tendency, when I write, to think in terms of scenes and dialogue and then go from there. In some cases, it's almost like I can see how the story is supposed to go and more or less just follow along. This seems to work well for fanfiction because all the grunt work of setting, characterization, theme, etc., has already been done for me.
With original fiction, I might start off with an idea for a scene or a character or a story but since I generally think in terms of science fiction/fantasy plots, I find myself having to do the grunt-work of coming up with the story world, characterizations, settings, themes, etc. Which is fun, don't get me wrong, but it can also be very distracting from what I want to do which is write the damn idea in the first place.
I'll usually start writing an original idea, but then I'll get caught up in having to figure out how something might work -- a character, an idea, a bit of the world building -- and then things will either stall or sometimes stop dead because I like for things to make sense and if they don't my brain gets all hurty-like.
Now, granted, the above also happens with fanfics but with fanfics, it's possible to go look up information about characters/setting rather than having to make them up and make them make sense. Need a GI Joe who can handle lasers? Five minutes on Google and I've got my answers -- and that's only if I don't go to the reference books I have at home. How does the inside of a Transformer work? Nobody knows, toss some techno-babble at it and we can move on!
But with original fiction, I tend to feel that the details are more important because I'm trying to create something that can stand on its own and that is consistent in and of itself -- maybe it won't be 100% documentary style realism but I also don't want suspension of disbelief knocking people out in the first couple of paragraphs. So, when the need to know the history of vampire hunting in my world comes up, I can do some research and reading about vampires and vampire hunting in this world and end up with a whole host of really cool catalogs but ultimately, how it works comes down to me.
Which is scary because like a lot of writers I'm horribly insecure about my own abilities. Fanfiction provides a scale against which I can measure myself -- did I stick close to the characters? Does what I wrote feel like it's at least in the spirit of the orginal? -- as well as a built in support group and no real worries because publishing is as simple as posting the fic somewhere.
With original fiction, I'm working without a net and measuring myself against myself and that, I think, makes me shy away from it. That and I'm actually hoping to one day get published for cash money and fiction writing is a buyer's market with fierce competition and the standards are a lot higher in some respects.
Of course, on the downside with fanfiction I tend to be self-conscious because the nagging little voice of "you're wasting your time" is always there in the back of my head warring with the sense of pride I do feel about my fanfics. I like my stuff, other people like my stuff and I've managed to write 90+ fanfics over the last three years -- actual stories with beginnings, middles and ends. Fanfiction made it possible for me to write about widowhood in ways that I don't know if I'd ever have been able to write about with original characters. For some reason, a little blue truck and a mute ninja made it easier to talk about one of the hardest things I've ever been through.
What's stupid to me about this whole self-conscious thing is that I know in my heart of hearts that I don't approach writing fanfiction really any differently than I do writing original fiction. I don't just load myself up with pop rocks and Coke and get crazy. I do the same kinds of research and revision with my fanfics that I do with original fics -- I once spent over an hour and a half researching a piece of information that amounted to one line in a fic just because I wanted to be as sure about it as I could. And for the record, you hyphenate anal retentive depending on context.
This isn't to say I'm giving up on original fiction in favor of fanfic -- or vice versa -- I want to finish both my novel *and* my GI Joe/TF fic because even in their unfinished states, they've got fans. And because they're both representative of things I love. Vampires and beating high holy hell out of the Combaticons, what could be more fun?
I got to pondering about this the other night at work since I'm in the middle of working on both fanfics and original fictions at the same time.
In some ways, fanfiction can be easier (for me) to write than original fiction is. I have a tendency, when I write, to think in terms of scenes and dialogue and then go from there. In some cases, it's almost like I can see how the story is supposed to go and more or less just follow along. This seems to work well for fanfiction because all the grunt work of setting, characterization, theme, etc., has already been done for me.
With original fiction, I might start off with an idea for a scene or a character or a story but since I generally think in terms of science fiction/fantasy plots, I find myself having to do the grunt-work of coming up with the story world, characterizations, settings, themes, etc. Which is fun, don't get me wrong, but it can also be very distracting from what I want to do which is write the damn idea in the first place.
I'll usually start writing an original idea, but then I'll get caught up in having to figure out how something might work -- a character, an idea, a bit of the world building -- and then things will either stall or sometimes stop dead because I like for things to make sense and if they don't my brain gets all hurty-like.
Now, granted, the above also happens with fanfics but with fanfics, it's possible to go look up information about characters/setting rather than having to make them up and make them make sense. Need a GI Joe who can handle lasers? Five minutes on Google and I've got my answers -- and that's only if I don't go to the reference books I have at home. How does the inside of a Transformer work? Nobody knows, toss some techno-babble at it and we can move on!
But with original fiction, I tend to feel that the details are more important because I'm trying to create something that can stand on its own and that is consistent in and of itself -- maybe it won't be 100% documentary style realism but I also don't want suspension of disbelief knocking people out in the first couple of paragraphs. So, when the need to know the history of vampire hunting in my world comes up, I can do some research and reading about vampires and vampire hunting in this world and end up with a whole host of really cool catalogs but ultimately, how it works comes down to me.
Which is scary because like a lot of writers I'm horribly insecure about my own abilities. Fanfiction provides a scale against which I can measure myself -- did I stick close to the characters? Does what I wrote feel like it's at least in the spirit of the orginal? -- as well as a built in support group and no real worries because publishing is as simple as posting the fic somewhere.
With original fiction, I'm working without a net and measuring myself against myself and that, I think, makes me shy away from it. That and I'm actually hoping to one day get published for cash money and fiction writing is a buyer's market with fierce competition and the standards are a lot higher in some respects.
Of course, on the downside with fanfiction I tend to be self-conscious because the nagging little voice of "you're wasting your time" is always there in the back of my head warring with the sense of pride I do feel about my fanfics. I like my stuff, other people like my stuff and I've managed to write 90+ fanfics over the last three years -- actual stories with beginnings, middles and ends. Fanfiction made it possible for me to write about widowhood in ways that I don't know if I'd ever have been able to write about with original characters. For some reason, a little blue truck and a mute ninja made it easier to talk about one of the hardest things I've ever been through.
What's stupid to me about this whole self-conscious thing is that I know in my heart of hearts that I don't approach writing fanfiction really any differently than I do writing original fiction. I don't just load myself up with pop rocks and Coke and get crazy. I do the same kinds of research and revision with my fanfics that I do with original fics -- I once spent over an hour and a half researching a piece of information that amounted to one line in a fic just because I wanted to be as sure about it as I could. And for the record, you hyphenate anal retentive depending on context.
This isn't to say I'm giving up on original fiction in favor of fanfic -- or vice versa -- I want to finish both my novel *and* my GI Joe/TF fic because even in their unfinished states, they've got fans. And because they're both representative of things I love. Vampires and beating high holy hell out of the Combaticons, what could be more fun?
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Date: 2008-07-01 11:41 pm (UTC)I think that fanfic also provides a valuable place to practice the rules - when to stay within them and when to break them.
And it's good practice for spotting logical plot holes and filling them.
May I link?
DV
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Date: 2008-07-02 12:50 am (UTC)And yes, pls feel free to link!
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Date: 2008-07-02 03:23 am (UTC)You're writing my never-written post about writing fanfic & original fiction for me.
Read some good writer's forums, btw, like Absolute Write, for tips and the assurance that you're not alone in feeling insecure about your writing. It's a standard affliction of good writers.
Oddly enough, the hacks seem to think they're great...
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Date: 2008-07-03 01:06 am (UTC)Essentially, if I could find a way to turn off the fret and make writing original stuff a lot more like writing fanfic in terms of "I'm just gonna do it and post it and hell with the consequences! F'off insecurity!" I think I'd be a lot happier at the end of the day.
Which, I think I'm gonna try to do. 'Cause what the hell do I really have to lose? I mean, once you write Metal-Head/Gnawgahyde slash, you've pretty much said "Here I am world! Watch out!" *G*
thanks for the rec, I will check it out
* (It helps to imagine 'This is ART!' being yelled in full-on throat-rending 'This is SPAR-TA!' style by the crazy art snob in my head)
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Date: 2008-07-03 07:13 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2008-07-04 12:21 am (UTC)While I do agree that you do have to know what happened before you can write a fic about a particular canon, I don't necessarily think you need to have the whole of canon in your head before you do. Though this can also depend a lot on what fandom you're writing in. I write mainly in fandoms where canon isn't one set solid thing, but is more of a pot-luck where you can pick and choose and mix and match according to your tastes. It also doesn't hurt that almost anything a fan comes up with can be justified because some version of the canon did something similar or even weirder (Especially in Transformers. Kiss Players! (http://transformers.wikia.com/wiki/Kiss_Players_%28franchise%29) Lookin' at you!)
I agree that readers can have clear ideas about characters but by and large, in my fanfics I'm more concerned about my very clear ideas about the characters. As I mention further down, spite plays a bit of a role in what I choose to write about and I'm apt to write a character in a certain way because I don't like the popular portrayal of that character or because I'm tired of seeing a character or a situation portrayed in a certain way. Or simply because I'm tired of NOT seeing a certain character portrayed at ALL. (*waves to Techrat*)
Then again, I'm used to writing in fandoms where the cry that the fandom has been "Ruined FOREVER!" (http://transformers.wikia.com/wiki/Ruined_FOREVER) is heard everytime Hasbro brings out a new version of Transformers or GI Joe and with repetition, that gets easier adn easier to ignore. Not to mention you only have to look around to see that often times those 'clear ideas' don't necessarily match up with actual canon. Canon vs. Fanon Snape (http://zorm.deviantart.com/art/Canon-Vs-Fanon-Snape-34384180?offset=20), for instance.
Which fandoms do you write in (I'm guessing based on the name, "Remmington Steele" but are there others?) and how does that change things? I've often referred to my fanfic writings as playing with the toys I never had as a kid; does it make a difference when the 'toys' in question are actual actors instead of, well, toys?
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Date: 2008-07-04 02:37 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2008-07-04 04:43 am (UTC)I don't see myself as writing actors, but characters. To me, I am just filling in gaps and continuing the story. I mostly write Remington Steele these days, which spend four years teasing the audience with a relationship which may or may not have been consummated in the final episode (the last scene showed them turning out the bedroom light).
I've written a sixth season continuing the story from that moment and I am fanatical about keeping everyone in character. I've been told my dialogue is so perfectly in character that it's like watching the episodes. I love that.
I've also done a lot of fictional journal writing and I have explored the pasts of the main characters.
I couldn't write an open canon fandom. I need to know that my story isn't about to become AU just because one of the writers comes up with something unexpected.
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Date: 2008-07-04 05:36 am (UTC)The canons I write in tend to be closed mainly because I prefer the 80s versions of my particular favorites. I have written a couple AU stories set in the Transformers Armada 'verse, but that was kind of a cheat since it was using one canon character and AU versions of canon characters from the original 80s Transformers universe. But people liked it so I must've done something right *G*
The closest I've come to writing in an open canon is basing some fics on the then-current GI Joe comic (this was a year or two ago) and in that case, if canon had changed to something I didn't want to use, I was ready to slap up the "AU!" label ASAP.
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Date: 2008-07-04 05:39 am (UTC)80s stuff is great. My brain never really left the 80s.
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Date: 2008-07-03 09:19 pm (UTC)Now let's go write some House fanfiction! *g*
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Date: 2008-07-03 11:11 pm (UTC)And yeah, I think you're right because by the time I started writing fanfic again I'd more or less given up on writing *anything*, original or fan. And writing fics and getting positive feedback and just generally getting myself into the headspace where I could think of myself as a writer again helped considerably in making it possible for me to start on (and eventually finish it, I will finish it goddamnit!) Butcher's Work.
Whoot! Housefic! BTW, I found the link to that Dr's journal about House that I told you about. Since almost everybody else has gotten a link, here is link for you: Medical Reviews of House (http://www.politedissent.com/house_pd.html) -- it's up to Season Four, episode 16.
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Date: 2008-07-03 11:04 pm (UTC)Which is actually something that's helped me write fanfics before too -- the pure and simple spite of "I can do this better than *THEM*" or "This will drive them nuts!" or "Screw you all, I'm writing about this character even if I'm the only one who cares about them!"
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Date: 2008-07-04 12:24 am (UTC)And thanks 8)
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Date: 2008-07-07 05:45 am (UTC)Yeah, I'm bitter. She's a successful hack, and I'm not, and I want to be a successful author, not a hack, but I also want to not starve. Suddenly, my hack projects have exploded at a tremendous rate. Imagine that! -.-
Back on point: I have to say that after reading L.J. Smith, my opinion on Meyer's writing has imporved marginally. Not a lot, but enough to say, "Holy crap, thee are SO many books out there much, worse worse than hers could ever be."
People should have faith in their original stories -- it's far more a matter of timing, publicity, genre placement and COVER ART than actual talent. Sad, but true. Attention spans in bookstores are short, and they still happen to be the most popular places to pick up 'impulse' books -- books that people might not normally read but appealed to them because of advertising, good press or catchy presentations.
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Date: 2008-07-04 01:06 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2008-07-04 02:01 am (UTC)I did have the idea that something like a
especially the one I wrotebut a little bit of meta about why you have paired up two characters could help spark some plot ideas or suchlike.I have found Mary Sue Litmus Tests to be a good way of keeping out for the trap of making original characters too special -- though I think most MSLTs are meant to be jokes/tounge-in-cheek and there's a danger in taking them too seriously and taking a character through to Sue-dom on the other side.
Other than that, I don't have much off the top of my head, but I'm going to keep pondering and I'm always open to suggestions.
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Date: 2008-07-04 02:59 am (UTC)So perhaps I'll need to simply WRITE MOAR before feeling confident enough to branch out into anything original. Food for thought, though! I heart metafandom.
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Date: 2008-07-04 03:15 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2008-07-05 05:08 am (UTC)But one young guy, Jamie Martingale, has absolutely taken on a life of his own, with a complex backstory. I've written stories where the principal canon figures hardly even enter the action-- And I'd love to turn his story into an original novel.
Oddly enough, I can't do that, for the same reason I can't go publishing fanfic-- Jamie isn't mine, I'm writing, essentially, fanfic about a fanon-not-canon figure.
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Date: 2008-07-05 08:13 pm (UTC)So, heck, go for it!
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Date: 2008-07-05 08:14 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2008-07-05 11:33 pm (UTC)here from metafandom
Date: 2008-07-04 04:52 am (UTC)My favorite character, Jack Sparrow, is very much like many of my original characters in the first place. And that makes it even more troublesome to me, because why not write about my own small, dark, morally and sexually ambiguous protagonist? And it's frustrating to me, when I see myself squander a great phrase on something that cannot be published someday... But I do it anyway.
And now I'm off to look at your original fic...
Re: here from metafandom
Date: 2008-07-04 05:10 am (UTC)That drives me crazy sometimes, because it feels like "Wait, I could make up my own character like this and do some other stuff different that I like too!"
Which then prompts the art snob in my head to be all "But that's copying; you're not a copier, are you?"
And then it's off to Cheesy Fanfic Headspace Monologue Land
Me: Sod off! I can make it different -- look how many fiesty heroines with supernatural abilities/alliances there are out there!
Art Snob: Well, if you want to be like that...
Me: Well, maybe I do!
Art Snob: Fine, fine...follow instead of lead...
Me: Why do you sound like Blast Off?
Art Snob: .....hack!
Followed by guilt and sulkings on my part.
And, let me just say, EEP!
Re: here from metafandom
Date: 2008-07-05 04:54 am (UTC)Yeah, I have those convos too;
Me: If I write a small, dark, ambiguous pirate, everyone will know where I got it from. But I hate to waste all that Age Of Sail research...
So I'll write a small, dark, ambiguous SPACE captain, instead!
Myself: Yeah, that will put them off the scent.
Me: Female?
Myself: Not slash? That would be a change!
Me: And a sentient spaceship.
Myself: Oh, like "The ship Who Sang?"
Me: oh fuck.
No, more like "Skeen's Leap."
Myself: It's still fanfic, even if the source is obscure.
Me: How about if she has a tail!
Myself: ...
Me: Why can't she have a tail?
I'm going to try to write it anyway.
I didn't find your OG-- where do I look?
Re: here from metafandom
Date: 2008-07-05 08:19 pm (UTC)Re: here from metafandom
Date: 2008-07-05 08:28 pm (UTC)However, I do have the first chapter of my novel in progress up here: Butcher's Bill -- Chapter One (http://dunmurderin.livejournal.com/71800.html?format=light) -- it's since been revised and I'll be posting a new version soon but here's what I have so far.
Oh, yay!
Date: 2008-07-05 10:31 pm (UTC)Can I use your little-lady-secret-weapon idea, or do you need to keep it for yourself?
Re: Oh, yay!
Date: 2008-07-05 10:52 pm (UTC)Just keep me appraised of this story 'cause I want to READ it! *G*
Re: Oh, yay!
Date: 2008-07-05 11:33 pm (UTC)will nowjust did.I gotta friend you real quick, so you can see it.
here from metafandom del.icio.us
Date: 2008-07-04 01:09 pm (UTC)Also, if I could find a way to make posting original fic as easy to do as fanfic, I'd so be there. Unfortunately, the only rapid route I can think of is posting to fictionpress or something like it. And until I get used to finding and reading stuff there, I'll probably keep from posting there simply because I feel like it'll be hard for people to find.
Forgetting that you usually aren't alone in how you feel about stuff seems to be a widely shared human trait regardless of hobby or profession ;)
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Date: 2008-07-04 02:42 pm (UTC)And oh, man, do I hear you on the research. I'm perfectly capable of spending half the night pursuing something for background just because I'll know if it's wrong if I don't...